Self Control

The things that are forbidden to us whether temporarily or permanent seem so enticing and desirable. In my case its the temporary that is causing me to hoard as much of my self control as possible. Am I trying so hard.

 Though my restriction will get over in a couple of months, the wait seems really long. I dont make any sense at this point but I make sense to me at this point and thats what matters.

Ramadan!

Another year, another awaiting for Ramadan! Its here now! Inshallah it will come soon. We have to many preparations. First clean our heart and our time table to make space for more important things. To make time to recite the Quran and make as much Zikr as possible, pray as much as possible and to stay away from relatives as much as possible. When people fast in Ramadan and abstain from eating, people fill their stomachs with gossip and rumours n hatred. Subhanallah! Is there never a stop to complaining?

 When we complain Allah takes away the barakah and fadl He has given us without asking. Just like He gave us without asking He also takes it away without asking.

Inshallah May Allah make our heart firm and make all the desires of this duniya insignificant for us. And May Allah not make me think to much of my fiance! Inshallah!!! :) 

Major Lesson

Whatever it is, whoever it is we must depend only on Allah, Our Creator and not His creations. If we do that, then we are left at the Mercy of that creation. That creation doesn't necessarily mean humans. It also includes what man has created.

 Example: to depend on a medicine as that will cure the disease. We know that the power for a medication to work comes from Allah alone. I had first hand experience with that. Alhamdulillah that Allah opened my eyes. 

 When we lose our loved ones people say that if only they went to the hospital earlier or only if they got the treatment before hand.... all that is gibberish. Just because a person receives medical attention doesn't mean that ones lifespan will be extended and refusing doctors treatment doesn't intend for that person to die. Our life span was written down earlier and recorded by an angel the moment our mothers conceived.

I pray that Allah gives us opportunity to acquire more knowledge that benefits us and others. May our knowledge be the best Sadaqatul Jaariah!

Memory Loss

I know I know. I had taken all the pains to write a poetry where I took solemn oath that I shall update my blog and voila here I am months later recalling it! Anyways the time lapse of 4 months had changed everything for me!

• I left my favorite place on earth Al Khobar, KSA and traded it for Dubai, UAE. Atleast my visa for KSA is not cancelled. Buttering and flattering my dear dad can help me accomplish my trip to Khobar.
• I went from single to being engaged. Huge transformation. Feel sad that I had to grow up. For some unknown reason weddings make me sad.
• My best friend got married a week ago (I was sad for her!)
• My other best friend got married in Jan (I was sad for her too but now I am not) and she is going to have a baby. Man we grow up so fast!!!
• My best friends are praying very hard that I get married as soon as possible. Its their prayers that got me engaged. Sheesh!
• Dubai is my new hometown now. And Dubai is Dubai! Everything seems so huge there.
• Started working on many new courses. Hard to juggle then again Allah will save me. He is the best Saviour!
• I went to India (still there!) Can't wait to leave this place. Relatives make life miserable sometimes (in my case all the time).
• I have a room for myself!!!! So glad. Provided the design and it looks great Mashallah. Now just confused about the paint. I wonder what my fiance's fav color is. Hmm.

Thats all that happened. Major changes. All for the best.